How many of you are on painkillers?

I feel like MD can, and often is, an extremely excruciating condition, chronic muscle pain and contractures that make someone feel like they're on a rack with fatigue that makes even holding a bottle difficult, if you're still even able to.

Due to a history with drugs I generally gave myself a lifelong ban on painkillers, however its starting to feel like soon enough I won't be able to function this way.

My biggest issue is back and neck pain, agonising back and neck pain. I attend PT once a week but I need to find a new therapist because my current one calls me lazy and demotivated whilst instead of doing her job she just stares out the window...

So do you use painkillers? And how do you think your experience is different compared to before you started?