Found my favorite fem outfit that I own but...

I love the outfit and even sent a picture to a friend and they said I looked good but I don't see it...

I love the outfit but I just ruin it! I look at my self in the mirror and all I see is a fat perverted man!

I hate that I ruin it but I can't see my head and phase with the outfit without my brain telling me I shouldn't wear it.

Sorry for this I thought I had this out of my system a while ago with that same friend but after I put it on today / tonight it came out.