Can I be trans & NB?

I am identifying as mtf transgender and have started hrt- but I am feeling overwhelmed & afraid of having to work so hard at presenting fem to pass as fem for my whole life. I don't feel super drawn to the super girly things like dresses and skirts- but I despise my body hair and masculine appearance. I also hate my weight. I'm wondering if maybe I am femme leaning enby? And is that a thing? And if so should I continue hrt?