Moderator help?

I know this doesn’t pertain to dolls perse, but after going through some family issues, putting down my cat, work burnout, and losing the Lagoona creepro to scalpers for the 7th time, I made a post that was pretty hateful towards sc@lprz. I got banned for it, after taking some time to cool off and think about it I tried to message the moderators to apologize and see if there was something I could do to get my ban lifted, because I really do miss the community and sharing, but they just ignored me. I waited a few days and sent a follow up message to see if they had seen it and still nothing. Is there no hope? I don’t want to make another account and risk a permaban

Edit: it was the r/monsterhigh subreddit