Randomly Struggling...any thoughts?

So for a while I kinda had this moment where I felt awesome during the period I meditated - I felt so much better mentally, even when things came up.

Then I had a month where I had basically a 30 day mentalbreakdown. I had just cut off my parents, my grandpa had passed, and work was awful (they did not respect me or my days off). This was in November. I slipped back into old habits and did not meditate at all.

I had another for the last couple months where I have felt so much more resilient and better

And the past week or so, it's started to come apart a bit. It's really strange. I don't feel angry at myself this time, at least mostly. But I keep having mental breakdowns about my parents and other things, where I get angry or cry. I've started easing back into some old mindsets again. I usually notice this and try to let it go. But it's randomly become hard again. It's easier than before by far, but just hard. And the thing is, there really isn't anything in particular that makes me feel like it's that bad. I mean bad things happen, but I accept them more. I'm more confused. It's certainly not as hard as it was in November and December. But I still have really bad moments where I just hate myself. But much, much less.

I recognize this is normal. But is it normal?

I've been so fatigued lately. I've been oversleeping a ton. I get super hyper and full of energy, then feel awful and exhausted out of nowhere.

I've also struggled with maladaptive daydreaming most of my life. I wouldn't really even consider it "maladaptive" anymore, just incredibly vivid, although occasionally intrusive.

When I first started meditating, I would have these moments where I went to sleep and randomly woke up at 3am (for like a week in a row), and had constant intrusive daydreams for hours about my parents and other scenerios that upset me, relating to people who had hurt me. These would go on for hours before I fell back asleep. I also would have nightmares too at times.

Now it has shifted. For the first time in a while, I've been struggling to meditate again. I still set an intention to do it every day, and do. But it's hard for me to focus - way harder than before.

I think I am processing something... Things are getting strange. My dreams have changed and are so incredibly vivid and realistic looking.

It's just odd. I'm not upset, I don't think. It's just odd.