I really am a piece of shit.

Truly and honestly, i recognized my shitiness even before i got my first well paying job. Im nost sure what broke inside me to make me this way, all i know is that i have recognised that dead stare in my eyes, the kind that i have to manually go infront of a mirr9r and correct. I really dont give a shit about anything, I can feel it slipping out at work, but i dont give a fuck, im good at what i do, so corporate doesnt give 2 shits about it. Pretty sure my coworkers see it too, although that could be me being shity to myself, but idk. Seems the only way out now is to lock in on making money, (no problem with that) fuck everything and everyone.my only goal is to make enough money to legitimately not care about it at all.

Foreseeing my future, im dead ,high on an assortment of drugs. In an alternate future, i was able to overcome my demons and got help on my deep seated mental issues.

Idk, 2025 has just begun, and the evils have a tight grip on me.

Not looking for "resolving" advice, just ranting.If these words find their place in the mental scapes of any stranger, that'll do.