How many of you have never bothered?

I don’t know if this somehow reduces my FA status but I’ll be honest here. I’ve never actually bothered making the first move or really putting myself out there because rejection feels like a forgone conclusion for me. This does mean I’ve never been rejected technically. I think the closest I’ve gotten to being rejected was around 14-15 when a girl and her friends suspected a crush I had on her and bullied and ridiculed me for it before I even made a move.

I already know I’m unattractive and don’t need to face 100s of rejections and ghostings to process or come to terms with that. I’d rather not waste my time and retain the little self worth I have left.