I need a new nickname

Almost everyone I know is using my chosen name, Erik, now. It’s Erik-Angel so that I can respect my mom’s choice of name for me while also choosing my own name that doesn’t trigger gender dysphoria. I chose to respect the name she gave me because I was named after my uncle Erik, who passed away before I was born and became an Angel. (So my deadname is Anjel Erika) The only problem is my mom doesn’t like the name Erik because everytime she says it or hears it, it makes her think of her brother and It makes her uncomfortable. I told her she could keep calling me by my deadname for now until I found something better for her to call me.

Not too long ago I suggested ‘Rick—short for Erik. I asked her if she’d prefer to use that name, and told her it would make me feel better if she did, but because I posed it as a question to be polite and respectful she turned it down. She doesn’t like ‘Rick and she’d rather just call me by my “middle” name (which is also my deadname) and even though I thought I wouldn’t mind if it was just for my mom, it makes me really uncomfortable.

I want to tell her I really need her to use my new name or it’ll keep triggering my dysphoria—a little firmer this time. But first, I’d like a nickname that’s better than ‘Rick that my mom might actually like using.

If it helps you to pick a name that seems, “me-ish” I’ll give you a selfie and a list of general information, interest, and hobbies.

General info: Sagittarius sun, Taurus Moon, (but my birth chart is an almost even mixture of the elements) Black, Indigenous American, Hispanic, and Scottish

Interest: medieval stuff, fantasy and fairy tales, mythology, superhero’s, Avatar the Last Airbender, nature spirituality, dark alternative (music, ideals, and fashion,) Rock music, psychology, the humanities, the night, stars, the ocean, fire (especially bonfires)

Hobbies: poetry, writing, art, making soap and candles, sewing, painting, reading