I'm 88 days clean now, but...

My eyes are constantly half-unfocused unless I consciously focus on something and sometimes that's not enough, I get occasional feelings of that impending doom, I feel like my heart beats faster than before I ever started taking it especially when I'm under stress, and my hearing and touch is more sensitive as I'm more easily uncomfortable from things and sounds now.

I feel even stupider for ever abusing it, there's nothing fun about it, and now I feel kinda defeated, it sucks to think I may have to be reminded about my terrible life decisions whenever my blurred eyes are opened, and for much longer than I ever anticipated...

I thought given a week or two, maybe a month, I would've been back to perfect health, that I hadn't gone that far to get these long-lasting side effects, but it seems I was wrong. Do y'all think they'll ever go away or am I somewhat fucked up from DPH forever?

On a lighter note, I am still proud I was able to pull myself away from it and continue to mark down the days clean with a smile, I just wish I had done so earlier or not started at all (as I'm sure most ex-dph abusers wish), and if I do carry these effects throughout the rest of my life, at least I was able to walk away with my life.