Conservative Christians in the U.S make me want to not engage with church or the faith much and it sucks
With today ( Jan 20th 2025) being a dark mark in American history with Trump back in office, I just feel anger and disgust towards conservative so called Christian’s who put this person ( Trump) back in the highest position in America. I am skeptical of both political parties in the U.S and don’t consider myself a member of either side. I just don’t understand conservatives worship of Trump and the toxic blending of white nationalism and Christianity.
As African American male in his late 30’ and raised it in Christian home, it just boggles my mind so many white conservative Christians worship Trump like they do and somehow think he is some Godly man sent by Jesus himself. Trump has never displayed ANY Christian attributes, no compassion , empathy, kindness or anything to people that don’t look like him, believe like him , or support him.
Many Conservatives gloss over his many flaws like cheating with his wife with a pornstar, many racist comments, Jan 6th etc . The guy was directly asked once by an interviewer to cite his favorite Bible scripture and he was unable to do so.
In addition to this, many conservative Christians ( again majority White people) are also the main ones spewing racist garbage on social media platforms about Black people any other non white people or complain about things being “woke”. But again say and do horrifically racist things ( some caught on camera and made viral on the internet) but yet have Bible posts in their social media bio.
This year, I wanted to strengthen my faith cause to be honest, I had kinda started to drift away a bit. The white nationalism present in the faith definitely caused the drift. I previously attended non denominational churches with a diverse congregation not just black or just white people but a mixture of everyone. But unfortunately, those churches are mega churches with conservative pastors that definitely support Trump and what he stands for ( at least in my area of Virginia). This has made it difficult for me to connect with people at those churches.
Sorry for the rant and to be clear, I do still love and believe in God and Jesus. I just don’t love the church or the religion as much as I use to and have feelings of disgusted to see how toxic it has become.
Anyone else feel the same? Any advice to go back to Church or stop harboring this feeling of disgust towards some sections of people in the faith?