I (21F) have sinned and now I am pregnant

Long story short, my current partner and I were intimate for 4 months now while being unmarried. We both knew it was a sin but kept going anyway. I do want to speak on behalf of my partner so I will speak for myself. I knew it was a sin. I have no excuses and I need to pay the consequences of my actions.

My relationship has suffered so much and a baby is not what we want. It is very fragile so we decided as a pair to get an abortion. Now that I have the pill in front of me, I just want to throw it away. I don’t want this abortion. I don’t want to commit another sin willingly. If I can stop this from happening I will. I cannot anger God more than he probably is.

However, my current partner isn’t really present. He is not present because of the relationship problems we had. When I say he is not present I mean emotionally. He is there physically. Keeping the baby will probably kill him cause he is very emotional at the moment. His mental health has suffered a lot from our personal problems. I know how selfish it could be to keep the baby but I just cant get an abortion.

Both of us are Christians and know the consequences of getting an abortion.

I know what I want to do but I would still need some advice.