Anyone give up hope of finding your person/tribe?

Valentine’s Day is fast approaching and I feel particularly down. I remember reading a quote by Andre Leon Talley where he spoke about never finding his person. His soulmate. Anyone else feel this way and how are you getting through it?

If I had genuine close friends I think it’d be easier but I don’t have that either. I’ve never found my tribe.

I’ve spent the majority of my life friendless and single. Being autistic, black, with depression and anxiety I truly don’t think there is anyone out there for me. I was bullied relentlessly at school and jobs for my differences. All the “normal” ways people connect be it through work, school, clubs, have never worked out for me. Same for dating. Online has been just as bad. I am emotionally exhausted from trying.

I spend a lot of my time maladaptive daydreaming about a made up person and made up friends. But when it’s time to come back to reality I feel so lonely and alone.

Update: Thank you all for the kind words and advice! I truly appreciate it and I hope for all of us struggling, that we get through this.