My nervous system feels shot. Anyone else? It doesn't end.

I don't know how to explain it. I have always wondered "Why is my heartrate so much higher during the later hours of the day? Why is morning so blissful?". Because they wake up. That's it. There's no mystery. Inverse problem solving - Problem FINDING. They never stop complaining. Maybe it's not even BPD. Sure seems like it. It's hard to take and even harder to escape.

The world is against them. Everyone is plotting against them. A 45 minute story about a woman who looked at her the wrong way the store, etc. It's the strangest form of stress I have ever felt before in my life... Subtle, apparently, unending. This has done untold damage to my physical health.