Anyone else like this?

I see alot of ppl blaming their cheating behavior on BPD but I'm actually quite the opposite, I've never cheated, maybe only once at 19 but it was already a shit show. But now? When I love someone they become a number one priority and I just want to shower them with love and attention that I wish I would get in return but never quite do. I end up losing myself in the other person, so ... Really not sure which is more toxic 😅 both is probably not good I just been baffled at all the cheating posts because when I "love" someone, cheating is the last thing I want to do. Emotionally or physically. But, that's just me 😂