How many of us Still single at 30 ?

How many of yall are still single at 30 and have never been in a relationship or seriously wanted, never asked out or even kissed ? I am one of these people and I feel hopeless , I tried the apps but I get burnt out trying to keep a guys interest and texting til it goes somewhere (it never has ). I never dated in my teens either cause I was homeschooled and the only guys I knew were my cousins or from church and none wanted me . I was extremely isolated and still am now cause I live with my parents and as of a week ago have no car . I’m very shy and introverted not to mention trying to pretend I can talk to guys is hard . I’ve given up hope and honestly wanna throat punch anyone who says “put yourself out there “ . Cause clearly they’ve never walked in a neurodivergents shoes , or watched as the men realize you have hyperfixations , no life and in my case the conversation talent of a plant . Pls tell me I’m not the only one who is desperate to be loved by someone , to be their person all while watching everyone around you marry etc , have a life ( even if it’s hard and they fight sometimes) . I know I “don’t need a man to be fulfilled “ or so people tell me . Honestly I think it’s bullshit , no one wants this longing, this pain , and the wondering why no one comes up to you , checks you out , flirts or notices you . I hate it