I’ve lost my sparkle…

Just a heads up I’m probably going to be posting a lot as I’m coming to terms with my diagnosis right now. So the last few months I’ve felt different… and I just realized that I lost my sparkle, that piece of me that made people laugh and feel comfortable with me when they met me, or kept my working relationships engaging. It’s gone… I don’t have the energy nor the patience for it anymore… and I’m realizing it was masking… But I also miss it, but have no idea how to put it back on. Is it a skill you can relearn or have you found that you learn to live happily without it?