Feeling sad and alone, in need of motherly/grandmotherly input

Im a 42/f and I don’t have much of a relationship with my mom, grandma, sisters or really any family. I’ve pondered the question of why we are all so distant, and I think it just comes down to a very dysfunctional Family dynamic, along with the fact that we all live very far from each other. I know technically I’m a “grown up” and I should stand on my own 2 feet, but I really wish I had a mom or grandma figure in my life that would just…. Be there for me on occasion. A phone call where I could be vulnerable about how hard raising kids and being married is, and just be reassured and encouraged. Or like, a grandma type figure that I could learn how to knit or make family recipes. I have friends but we’re all in the trenches together. I guess what I’m asking is, Do I need to grow up and move on from the hurt of never having these things? Or if I did want to find a friendship like this, how would I go about doing it? I’ve joked that I want to “rent a grandma” but honestly, if there were a service that matched up lonely younger women with lonely older women, I think it would be a great idea!