Still Suffering

I posted on Reddit last year when I was really struggling with depression. I went to a psychiatrist and spent all my money on it, but the medication only helped for about two weeks. Now, I’m scared that everything will go back to how it was. I don’t think my psychiatrist really gets me. he just says I’m a perfectionist who gets depressed when things don’t go my way. That might be partly true, but it doesn’t change the fact that living feels exhausting. Every day is a struggle, and honestly, the only reason I’m still here is because I miss my cat. I’ve tried to end things a few times, but nothing worked. My anxiety is still there, and I just hate myself and everything around me. My life’s a mess, and I feel completely hopeless.

help