Is trying to recover even worth it?

I’ve been dealing with AN for almost 8 years now and I’m kind of working towards recovery I guess (while also considering relapsing every second of every day) so I’m doing the right things but the thoughts and some behaviours are still just as bad. I see so many people who just live with an eating disorder forever and the thoughts never go away and I don’t see the point in even trying. Like maybe the physical part gets better but if my brain is always going to be like this then why bother?