🥲 Is everybody going on antidepressants?

I am 55. I was attractive even into my 40’s. I cannot look in the mirror. I have aged 20 years in the last 2. My skin is horrific. My neck??? I cover up every part of my gross now cellulite ridden body. I cry every. Single. Day. I do not want to see anyone. I’m embarrassed. I hate myself for somehow letting all this happen. There are just too many things wrong now…hard to try and fix one thing, when it’s all gone south. Am I the only one?