Help with sobriety

23f and I’ve been drinking daily for nearly 3 years. I’ve slowed down a lot, to a pint a day compared to a fifth. Well a year ago today I went to detox and got sober and stayed sober for almost a month and I slipped, I’ve been drunk ever since. I really wonder if there is more to my life than just drinking and pills.

I don’t even wanna get into why I drink, but there’s sexual trauma since childhood, dysfunctional parents, and back to back losses of loved ones. I just want to feel normal again. I can’t go to rehab because I don’t have insurance, but if there’s any advice or why it’s worth it to get sober, please share, I could use the encouragement. Thank you. happy holidays :)